Recently, I crashed into myself. Hard. A full body resistance-to-change face plant. In the struggle of moving from who I was to who I am becoming, the Universe tends to notice and becomes the world's biggest asshole Fitness Boot Camp coach who wants to see just how serious I am about shedding those unwanted pounds and firming up my core.
Open Wide the Windows, Open Wide the Doors.
Last night it poured. Rain punched a hole through the sky and came in a torrent, upsetting the fat mother spider on my porch, interrupting her dinner of a stink bug I had caught and placed in her web earlier that day.
Hello. It’s me.
I have a dear friend, my first partner...the first man I was ever blessed to be in love with, and the first man I ever hurt to his core. We have, together, over the years been able to salvage from the wreckage and repair our relationship to where now it is strong, and solid, and with mutual respect and admiration. We have healed.
The Black Dog
I can tell when he’s about to visit. I get away from daily meditating, writing, and working out with a sense of discipline. I always seem to falter and recede into a sadder, darker, and cynical place. What’s different this time is that I’m not staying in this place--the bottom of the well--for as long …
The Rest Is Still Unwritten.
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon? Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?Mary Oliver I hold these truths: Life's not about a single moment of great triumph, of trophies and gold stars. Life is not about getting a degree, getting a job, squirreling away …
There’s Something You Should Know.
Before you have sex, let the person you want to have sex with know you're HIV positive. Use a condom when you have sex. Don't share needles if you shoot up. Always use a clean needle, regardless of your HIV status, or clean your needle before you share it with someone else. Should be pretty …
Thoughts on AIDSWatch 2016
Hearing the stories of those affected by HIV at the plenary session in Washington, D.C. Held yearly in Washington, DC, AIDSWatch is a caucus of citizens living with or affected by HIV, assembled to discuss with elected officials the issues impacting those with HIV/AIDS. With over 300 represented from 36 states, North Carolina had the …
Sex is No Longer a Tee Shirt.
I'm not the same soul I once was. A lot has changed. A lot had to change. So you shouldn't expect out of me what I embodied in the past. For that part of me no longer exists. As of 2020, I've been HIV positive now for fourteen years. I became positive through unprotected, or …
A Rhapsody In Blue.
"Okay, I've got one Tyler!" He was busy flirting with Bruce the Bartender. Bruce is female, gorgeous pixie cut, curvy blue eyes that compliment the curved, clover leaf intersections of her body, mapped by a topography of tattoos. It's also important to know that Tyler's straight, and I'm not. Tyler raised his eyebrows with"Yes?" He'd …
Beautiful Sadness.
Christmas Eve morning, I turned on Spotify. I'd heard there was a new Taylor Swift Holiday station from someone, I don't remember who. So, I figured I'd give it a try. I listened to exactly one line of Taylor's cover of "Santa Baby" before I said aloud, "No!" and opted for Mary Chapin Carpenter Holiday …
